While workouts and nutrition seem to be going pretty well, it appears as though everything else just will not go my way and I can't for the life of me figure out why. Big things go great it seems, but any and all little things just don't. Strange how things work sometimes, that's for sure.
I feel as though I am a pretty damn positive person, I stay up, I don't let things bother me too much no matter how much I am tested, and I am always looking for the good in people and things no matter what. So let me ask you this: when negativity surround you, when it seems that people and things just want nothing more than to test your ability to be you. When everything around you seems to try to drag you down. What do you do?
I'm not going to lie, I have thought of going in many different directions here. I have thought about just getting really negative, though about bitching and moaning about anything and everything horrible and potentially crappy in my day. I have thought about going off on the people around me who just refuse to see things in a good light and want to share all their negativity with me. I have thought about joining those people and seeing things their way. I have thought about running away, moving out to the woods, the mountains, shoot, back to California where I can just hide in the wilderness and forget about all the little things that bring me down. I have thought about so much. But then it comes time to do, and the side of me that I am most proud of comes out.
To steal a quote from the greatest movie ever (Batman Begins people!): "it's not who you are underneath, but what you DO that defines you". This rings so true to me all the time. My actions are what make me up as a person, not my thoughts. Hell man, most people out there I know have no clue as to who they really are. They think they are this and that type f person, but in reality, they don't and probably have never ACTED the way they think they are. So what type of person are they?
I am supportive, I am trusting, I am helpful, I am patient, and I am humble. No matter what goes on in my head from time to time, it's these things that seem to always come out in my actions no matter what. I think horrible thoughts, I complain plenty, I judge, I insult, I can be very selfish, I tend to be pretty freaking stupid, and I lack responsibility. All these negative qualities and more are part of my personality, but in the end, I strive to make sure that when I act, when I interact, and when I speak, I am not someone who I myself would not want to be friends with. If life is meaningless if not shared, I hope to be someone who shares my life with everyone. I hope that the person I have chosen to be is one that others can appreciate and respect, without fear, without too many complaints, and with ease and comfort.
Well, there’s a rant for you people! And all I wanted to do was write about my training and nutrition program over the past month. Funny how things just inspire a different path sometimes. I guess I’ve been going through a lot lately and feel as though this blog is a modern and effective way to express some of my thoughts. Good times.
Never Stop, GET FIT.